This year has flown by so quickly. I say that every year but this year even more so. I keep thinking it’s February or March. It has been a difficult year. The US elections took a lot out of me. A few days before the election I was gonna post something about them but I couldn’t find the words, I still can’t. I’m distraught ngl, but I’d be distraught still if Harris had won. What an awful world we live in, that those two monsters were what we had to “choose” from. It’s the kinda shit that makes you give up on humanity. Still, I try to remind myself that there are still many battles to be fought on the smaller scale, and they aren’t any less important.
On top of that I’m so tired all the time, I’ve had several new health problems this year, and have been sick twice in the last month. (Nothing serious but it’s frustrating to deal with.) I used to go for a walk every day, but between work, my health, and the coming of winter, I haven’t been doing it very much. I woke up at sunrise the other day and went for a short walk (it was below freezing and I wasn’t dressed for the weather). It was very peaceful, I think I’d like to do that more often. I’m thinking of getting a cheap digital camera to take pictures, but I don’t need more junk rn. I’m working on moving out of my folks’ house rn so maybe when that’s over with.
I found God this year, I guess. I didn’t expect that, I doubt many people would. I still don’t know what I believe exactly and oftentimes I question it all. Everything I thought I understood about religion and God is different now. I did not have a good experience with religion growing up. It was a very distant, performative type of religion, one where genuine faith didn’t matter, just optics, and it was exhausting. But yeah, basically I’m a Christian now. I’m still chill though don’t worry lol.
I’m tired so I’m off to bed (maybe after a snack). I’m not very hungry on account of the stress and sickness but it’s probably best I eat something. Tomorrow is my day off so I’m looking forward to sleeping in. Take care